I’m not happy. And that’s…odd.
I have conquered my greatest foe…
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Alright, so my greatest foe just sort of walked out, unexpectedly. He was the ultimate thorn in my side for so long, and it didn’t even seem like he knew he was doing it. Just one of those righteous do-gooders who wanted to make the world a better place, and also make me sick. Now that he’s gone, this office is mine, ALL MINE.
And it’s hollow, for some reason. All the changes I’ve made have been too easy, and it’s putting me on edge, like SOMETHING should be going wrong, and the fact that nothing is wrong is wrong. So wrong. This morning I oversaw a massive shipment of custom design platforms– all very standard, business as usual- but I wanted to make a change at the last minute. I went to the sales team and told them to can everything, because all the work they just did was rendered moot. It’s all about fibreglass ladders, I said! Stay late, because I say so, I said!
That was it. My word was law, so they called their families, said they were going to be late and sadly got on with their work. It was just so…easy. I said something and people just went and did it, because it was their job and I was the boss.
I thought I’d finally gotten everything I wanted, but this small victory over aluminium platforms truly taught me something. Sometimes, you get everything you want, and what you want isn’t actually what you want, because the thing you wanted was actually the thing you thought you didn’t want. But it was. It was that thing that you wanted, all along. It took an order of fibreglass folding ladders’ to make me see it.
Or maybe not…maybe I’m just not asserting my power enough. I’m sure firing a receptionist would make me feel a lot better.
-Sandrine
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